Broken

Trying to mend the pieces,
The pieces of what was broken,
The pieces which was covered with lies,
My heart begins to darken,

It begins to lose it's usual calm,
Like it is stuck in another realm,

I tried picking the pieces up,
Only to cut myself deeper,
Tried getting myself up,
Only to be trapped within my own temper,

I had my doubts,
I paid my debts,
It didn't seem enough,
Trying to break through,

Here I lie broken again,
Trying to find some meaning,
Hoping to end the pain,
Broken and barely breathing.

The Blank Pages

God, if you're there,

I could use a sign,

I don't know how I fare,

It was just a simple design,

I'm beginning to lose it,

There are no more candles which I see lit,

The darkness is what's left,

My heart is now soft,

It's not as strong as it use to be,

Maybe it's just me,

But I could use a little help,

I'm beating myself up into a pulp.

Pressing On

A little tired,
A little exhausted,
Running out of time,
Torn with a choice,
There's no turning back now,
No time for sorrow,
No time for fear,
Must protect the things you hold dear.

Out of the frying pan, into the fire..

Nuff said... :'(

Round Two

So this is again,
Oh yea, just a little pain,
Just a little far out,
Trusting my gut,
I need to go,
To get my ammo,
To prepare for what I failed to accomplish the first time,
It felt the same,
With a little difference,
With a little elegance,
With a little confidence,
And with a little peace.

BirthDaaaaaYyyy Dedication :)

Oh no, look what day it is today,
I don't know what to say,
It looks like someone is getting older AGAIN,
Maybe she can forget it with a tonic & gin,
It's been a while,
Here's a candle,
With a muffin,
To Wish You A Happy Birthday!! Livon




CONGRATULATIONS!! YOU'RE NOW A YEAR OLDER AGAIN!!
Now go away and have some fun ... =)

kthxbai....

The Wait

I was waiting for you between the crossroads of yesterday and tomorrow,

And there I was waiting next to the morning dew,

Wondering if you would come along,

Perhaps after I sing you a song,

Maybe I'm hallucinating,

Maybe I'm just waiting,

Maybe it's just the same pain,

All alone again.

The Spam Mail Which Caught My Attention

When things in your life seem , almost too much to handle, When 24 Hours in a day is not enough, Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee. A professor stood before his philosophy class And had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students, if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.

He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full.

The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.' The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed. 'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things - family, children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions – Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car. The sand is everything else --The small stuff. 'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So... Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play With your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. 'Take care of the golf balls first -- The things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. 'I'm glad you asked'. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

How?

I was searching for answers.. and then it came to me..

How does one get over something you hold dear?

You don't. If it's meant to be, it'll come back to you sooner or later.

If for some strange reasons it still doesn't return after ages of wait, know that you'll never 'get over' something like that, but it's still going to be okay.

This is because, such event punches a huge hole in your life; and that hole never goes away, so at first you're always falling into it. You try throwing boards across it, but they're unreliable. They break, they rot, they slip, you slip.

Then you try to fill it in; but you can't tell how deep it is, so you can't tell how much life it's going to take to fill it, or where you're going to get it from.

Besides, whatever you throw in it is gone, buried. Your only real alternative is to build more life around the hole.

The more life you build, the smaller a part of your whole life it is, and the easier it is to navigate around it without falling in.

Turning Point

It was stunning,

To finally being able to breath again,

Without pondering,

Without the attached pain,

Of what if's and what not.

To be able to live your life without regret,

There are stuffs you'll never forget,

And stuffs you'll always keep to your heart,

But whatever is, don't be afraid to love,

In whatever place,

Or for the change,

Just let it be.

And pray you can live with your choice,

If you have regrets on your wake,

Then it's time you fix it at your own pace,

Not doing so, would just not be smart,

Whether it's reconnecting with the past,

Or just throwing it all to your last effort.

The past is something you learn from, you MUST act on the present to shape the future.

Farewell..

Torn 3

Someday we're figure this all out,
Whether it's a lie or not,
And just how good it can get,
Simply by enjoying the beautiful sunset,
Take a walk with me,
Things might not be the same,
But the moment spent and taken,
Can never be forgotten.

Torn 2

Been talking to myself lately,
My mind is drifting apart slowly,
Wondering whether anything I do is right,
She might be gone without a thought,
I'm clinging to hope,
Hoping it's not too late,
It's another day for pain,
Another day for the rain,
I try to hold this tears,
By overcoming my fears,
Are you there?
Or am I just a bore...

Torn

I was torn between my own decisions and time,

I've always wonder if there's a right or wrong choice,

Whether there's a turning point to your heart,

As I am slowly falling apart,

I don't know what's there do,

As all I need for you to say it isn't so,

There's only so much a heart can take,

Hoping it's not fake,

But between the rights and wrongs,

My life could be sang by so many sad songs,

Watching as you slowly drift away,

Being without you everyday.

Her Diamonds

Oh what the hell she says
I just can't win for losing
And she lays back down
Man there's so many times
I don't know what I’m doin'
Like I don't know now

By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Says it's funny how the night
Can make you blind
I can just imagine
And I don't know what I’m supposed to do
But if she feels bad then I do too
So I let her be

And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
She’s down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down

She sits down and stares into the distance
And it takes all night
And I know I could break her concentration
But it don't feel right

By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Sits down on the bed and starts to cry
And there's something less about her
And I don't know what I’m supposed to do
So I sit down and I cry too
And don't let her see

And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
She’s down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down

She shuts out the night
Tries to close her eyes
If she can find daylight
She’ll be all right
She’ll be all right
Just not tonight

And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
She’s down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down


Rob Thomas - Her Diamonds

Hello You

I was looking around,
I never knew that you could be found,
But there you were,
Right in front of me,
Whenever I'm with you my troubles seem to fade away,
And finally for once, I feel I'm breathing,
My heart was taken away by your smile,
Hoping you'll stay a little while,
How could I be so blind,
I never knew you were in my mind,
Isn't life unbelievable,
You were there when I just lost hope.

Hello You.. :)

Again

The same crossings,
The same pain,
Again and again,
Waiting for it to pass,
Hoping it to be a miss,
Instead of a loss,
Of what was thought after time and time,
Was it too late,
Was it fate,
It's the same situation,
In a different direction,
Without a hint of satisfaction,
But for the sake of infatuation, motivation, and application.

The Beginning of The End

I'm building, or more specifically drawing something new.

It's going to be

Legend ... wait for it..... darrryy.....

Wassup MACHA!

I Need Another Me

There's not enough time,
I need another me,
So many choices,
So many faces,
Even the act of being inactive is actually an action,
It's a different sensation,
So many paths,
So many decisions,
You wish you could walk them all,
Standing tall,
Whether it's wrong or right,
Whether it's day or night,
You feel out of touch,
When you could regret something so much,
Not knowing whether of the end result,
Thinking its your fault,
Wondering what will happen if another path was taken,
Hoping you're the awaken.

The Call

I'm waiting for a call,
Right across the hall,
Wondering when it would ring,
Waiting over nothing,
Hoping it will be something,
Maybe I could sing,
Then maybe it would ring,
What a strange little thing.

Holding On

You feel a little strange,
When you feel the usual fiery hate,
Or perhaps the passionate love,
That you once used to have seem to lose it's natural taste,
The guidance of thy will and desire,
Can no longer satisfy what's to come,
It's like being trapped in a maze,
Trying to move,
Trying to live,
Wondering whether I'm progressing in the puzzle of life.

Moo

The day of red packets,
The day where you see exploding rockets,
Extremely sweet mandarin oranges,
The day where kids drink alcoholic beverages,
Yes, it's that day again,
The day where eating too much is not a sin, *yeah right*

But what the heck,
Happy *Niu* Year... :)

Random Thought

Where's the light at the end of the tunnel when you need it?

Exam Feeling

This is what I'm feeling...













Feeling *dead* after putting the flag up...

Scream

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current State of Mind

I picked up the book,
It gave me a strange look,
It was staring back at me,
Felt like love,
Or is it more like hate,
A hate like?
Or a love like hate?
True love hate like?
Freight, Surcharges/Discounts, Taxes, Price?
Good Issue, Picking Packing?
Transfer Order? Consignment Fill up?
Consignment Reverse Order, Consignment Pick Up?
Completion A? Completion B?