:)

Was a little down,
And there she was turning my frown,
Into a smile,
You took the extra mile,

For that, I am grateful,
And here I am with a little tearful,
It's like you could read my mind,
When I was a little blind,

I was a little sleepy when you woke me up,
You nudged me like a little buttercup,
It's strange the simplest things in life keep you going,
And for a moment, it felt like you could take upon almost anything,

I'm not sure what happens tomorrow,
But I'm glad you're here to remove my sorrow,

I want you to know I'll always have your back,
Even if the whole world turn against you,
So just layback,
And know that you need not worry if you have problems you can't handle on you.

Crazy

A segment of my usual group chat.

He's CrazyZal. He's already on the other side. Once he is crazy, there is no turning back for him.

Move

I'm looking back at something,
On something which is now nothing,
I know I'm crazy,
And now I'm being plain lazy,

But I know I have to move,
With or without love,
It's funny how a simple message can light up your day,
And sometimes the most hurtful things are the things you say,

God grant me strength,
As I'm losing my faith,
But I still thank you for the things you have done for me,
I've no regrets if this is my time,

My heart is in your hands,
I'm not sure if I'll ever understand,
But I'll never stop,
Not even at the last drop.

Arigato

I know this isn't the end,
It's merely the beginning,
It's like being a quicksand,
Trapped and wondering,

Trying to set yourself free,
Only seeing yourself sink even deeper,
Can't you see,
It's nothing but a faint whisper,

Waiting for it to stop,
Waiting for a rope,
Just like a raindrop,
Just a small trickle of hope.


Thank you...

Faith

Well I guess it would be nice
If I could touch your body
I know not everybody
Has got a body like you

But I've got to think twice
Before I give my heart away
And I know all the games you play
Because I play them too

Oh but I
Need some time off from that emotion
Time to pick my heart up off the floor
And when that love comes down
Without devotion
Well it takes a strong man baby
But I'm showing you the door

'Cause I gotta have faith...

Baby
I know you're asking me to stay
Say please, please, please, don't go away
You say I'm giving you the blues
Maybe
You mean every word you say
Can't help but think of yesterday
And another who tied me down to loverboy rules

Before this river
Becomes an ocean
Before you throw my heart back on the floor
Oh baby I reconsider
My foolish notion
Well I need someone to hold me
But I'll wait for something more

Yes I've gotta have faith...

George Michael - Faith

*MmmMmmmmMmmMM*

A little loose

I thought it would last,
That's why I kept looking back at the past,
It was the sweetest mistake,
Yet here I stand, walking alone by the lake,

I don't need you to understand,
You never did,
It feels like I'm trapped alone in an island,
Like a star which is now an asteroid,

Falling and falling,
Seems like it's never stopping,
I sit here, waiting for a sign,
Like a self-destruct campaign,

Which I'm trying to deactivate,
I hope you won't be late,
Cause I'm not sure how long I can hold,
I don't know what you were told,
But I'm only a shadow of my former self,
Like a broken clock on top of a dusty shelf.

God, I could use a little help.

Mask

I know that look,

You're holding back,

You're afraid to get hurt,

As I'm covered with dirt,

I'm smiling,

Trying to hide the faint cry in my heart,

I'm laughing,

Ignoring the missing pieces that is now apart,

I don't know what to say,

I'm losing myself day by day,

I'm afraid to talk,

Fearing what I say will only scare you away,

I begin to fall and sulk,

Wishing I knew the words to say,

So I stand here, looking from a distance,

Content with just the smile in your face,

Wearing a mask as you look upon me,

Hoping it will hold,

My heart is bleeding inside,

But my desire will never be said,

As I'm tired,

A little scared and afraid,

Losing the pieces which completes me,

Trying to look the same.

By wearing a mask with a smile on the face,

Hiding whatever emotions, in order to move at my own pace.

Broken

Trying to mend the pieces,
The pieces of what was broken,
The pieces which was covered with lies,
My heart begins to darken,

It begins to lose it's usual calm,
Like it is stuck in another realm,

I tried picking the pieces up,
Only to cut myself deeper,
Tried getting myself up,
Only to be trapped within my own temper,

I had my doubts,
I paid my debts,
It didn't seem enough,
Trying to break through,

Here I lie broken again,
Trying to find some meaning,
Hoping to end the pain,
Broken and barely breathing.

The Blank Pages

God, if you're there,

I could use a sign,

I don't know how I fare,

It was just a simple design,

I'm beginning to lose it,

There are no more candles which I see lit,

The darkness is what's left,

My heart is now soft,

It's not as strong as it use to be,

Maybe it's just me,

But I could use a little help,

I'm beating myself up into a pulp.

Pressing On

A little tired,
A little exhausted,
Running out of time,
Torn with a choice,
There's no turning back now,
No time for sorrow,
No time for fear,
Must protect the things you hold dear.

Out of the frying pan, into the fire..

Nuff said... :'(

Round Two

So this is again,
Oh yea, just a little pain,
Just a little far out,
Trusting my gut,
I need to go,
To get my ammo,
To prepare for what I failed to accomplish the first time,
It felt the same,
With a little difference,
With a little elegance,
With a little confidence,
And with a little peace.

BirthDaaaaaYyyy Dedication :)

Oh no, look what day it is today,
I don't know what to say,
It looks like someone is getting older AGAIN,
Maybe she can forget it with a tonic & gin,
It's been a while,
Here's a candle,
With a muffin,
To Wish You A Happy Birthday!! Livon




CONGRATULATIONS!! YOU'RE NOW A YEAR OLDER AGAIN!!
Now go away and have some fun ... =)

kthxbai....

The Wait

I was waiting for you between the crossroads of yesterday and tomorrow,

And there I was waiting next to the morning dew,

Wondering if you would come along,

Perhaps after I sing you a song,

Maybe I'm hallucinating,

Maybe I'm just waiting,

Maybe it's just the same pain,

All alone again.

The Spam Mail Which Caught My Attention

When things in your life seem , almost too much to handle, When 24 Hours in a day is not enough, Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee. A professor stood before his philosophy class And had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students, if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.

He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full.

The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.' The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed. 'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things - family, children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions – Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car. The sand is everything else --The small stuff. 'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So... Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play With your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. 'Take care of the golf balls first -- The things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. 'I'm glad you asked'. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

How?

I was searching for answers.. and then it came to me..

How does one get over something you hold dear?

You don't. If it's meant to be, it'll come back to you sooner or later.

If for some strange reasons it still doesn't return after ages of wait, know that you'll never 'get over' something like that, but it's still going to be okay.

This is because, such event punches a huge hole in your life; and that hole never goes away, so at first you're always falling into it. You try throwing boards across it, but they're unreliable. They break, they rot, they slip, you slip.

Then you try to fill it in; but you can't tell how deep it is, so you can't tell how much life it's going to take to fill it, or where you're going to get it from.

Besides, whatever you throw in it is gone, buried. Your only real alternative is to build more life around the hole.

The more life you build, the smaller a part of your whole life it is, and the easier it is to navigate around it without falling in.

Turning Point

It was stunning,

To finally being able to breath again,

Without pondering,

Without the attached pain,

Of what if's and what not.

To be able to live your life without regret,

There are stuffs you'll never forget,

And stuffs you'll always keep to your heart,

But whatever is, don't be afraid to love,

In whatever place,

Or for the change,

Just let it be.

And pray you can live with your choice,

If you have regrets on your wake,

Then it's time you fix it at your own pace,

Not doing so, would just not be smart,

Whether it's reconnecting with the past,

Or just throwing it all to your last effort.

The past is something you learn from, you MUST act on the present to shape the future.

Farewell..

Torn 3

Someday we're figure this all out,
Whether it's a lie or not,
And just how good it can get,
Simply by enjoying the beautiful sunset,
Take a walk with me,
Things might not be the same,
But the moment spent and taken,
Can never be forgotten.

Torn 2

Been talking to myself lately,
My mind is drifting apart slowly,
Wondering whether anything I do is right,
She might be gone without a thought,
I'm clinging to hope,
Hoping it's not too late,
It's another day for pain,
Another day for the rain,
I try to hold this tears,
By overcoming my fears,
Are you there?
Or am I just a bore...

Torn

I was torn between my own decisions and time,

I've always wonder if there's a right or wrong choice,

Whether there's a turning point to your heart,

As I am slowly falling apart,

I don't know what's there do,

As all I need for you to say it isn't so,

There's only so much a heart can take,

Hoping it's not fake,

But between the rights and wrongs,

My life could be sang by so many sad songs,

Watching as you slowly drift away,

Being without you everyday.