Faith

Well I guess it would be nice
If I could touch your body
I know not everybody
Has got a body like you

But I've got to think twice
Before I give my heart away
And I know all the games you play
Because I play them too

Oh but I
Need some time off from that emotion
Time to pick my heart up off the floor
And when that love comes down
Without devotion
Well it takes a strong man baby
But I'm showing you the door

'Cause I gotta have faith...

Baby
I know you're asking me to stay
Say please, please, please, don't go away
You say I'm giving you the blues
Maybe
You mean every word you say
Can't help but think of yesterday
And another who tied me down to loverboy rules

Before this river
Becomes an ocean
Before you throw my heart back on the floor
Oh baby I reconsider
My foolish notion
Well I need someone to hold me
But I'll wait for something more

Yes I've gotta have faith...

George Michael - Faith

*MmmMmmmmMmmMM*

A little loose

I thought it would last,
That's why I kept looking back at the past,
It was the sweetest mistake,
Yet here I stand, walking alone by the lake,

I don't need you to understand,
You never did,
It feels like I'm trapped alone in an island,
Like a star which is now an asteroid,

Falling and falling,
Seems like it's never stopping,
I sit here, waiting for a sign,
Like a self-destruct campaign,

Which I'm trying to deactivate,
I hope you won't be late,
Cause I'm not sure how long I can hold,
I don't know what you were told,
But I'm only a shadow of my former self,
Like a broken clock on top of a dusty shelf.

God, I could use a little help.

Mask

I know that look,

You're holding back,

You're afraid to get hurt,

As I'm covered with dirt,

I'm smiling,

Trying to hide the faint cry in my heart,

I'm laughing,

Ignoring the missing pieces that is now apart,

I don't know what to say,

I'm losing myself day by day,

I'm afraid to talk,

Fearing what I say will only scare you away,

I begin to fall and sulk,

Wishing I knew the words to say,

So I stand here, looking from a distance,

Content with just the smile in your face,

Wearing a mask as you look upon me,

Hoping it will hold,

My heart is bleeding inside,

But my desire will never be said,

As I'm tired,

A little scared and afraid,

Losing the pieces which completes me,

Trying to look the same.

By wearing a mask with a smile on the face,

Hiding whatever emotions, in order to move at my own pace.

Broken

Trying to mend the pieces,
The pieces of what was broken,
The pieces which was covered with lies,
My heart begins to darken,

It begins to lose it's usual calm,
Like it is stuck in another realm,

I tried picking the pieces up,
Only to cut myself deeper,
Tried getting myself up,
Only to be trapped within my own temper,

I had my doubts,
I paid my debts,
It didn't seem enough,
Trying to break through,

Here I lie broken again,
Trying to find some meaning,
Hoping to end the pain,
Broken and barely breathing.

The Blank Pages

God, if you're there,

I could use a sign,

I don't know how I fare,

It was just a simple design,

I'm beginning to lose it,

There are no more candles which I see lit,

The darkness is what's left,

My heart is now soft,

It's not as strong as it use to be,

Maybe it's just me,

But I could use a little help,

I'm beating myself up into a pulp.

Pressing On

A little tired,
A little exhausted,
Running out of time,
Torn with a choice,
There's no turning back now,
No time for sorrow,
No time for fear,
Must protect the things you hold dear.

Out of the frying pan, into the fire..

Nuff said... :'(

Round Two

So this is again,
Oh yea, just a little pain,
Just a little far out,
Trusting my gut,
I need to go,
To get my ammo,
To prepare for what I failed to accomplish the first time,
It felt the same,
With a little difference,
With a little elegance,
With a little confidence,
And with a little peace.

BirthDaaaaaYyyy Dedication :)

Oh no, look what day it is today,
I don't know what to say,
It looks like someone is getting older AGAIN,
Maybe she can forget it with a tonic & gin,
It's been a while,
Here's a candle,
With a muffin,
To Wish You A Happy Birthday!! Livon




CONGRATULATIONS!! YOU'RE NOW A YEAR OLDER AGAIN!!
Now go away and have some fun ... =)

kthxbai....

The Wait

I was waiting for you between the crossroads of yesterday and tomorrow,

And there I was waiting next to the morning dew,

Wondering if you would come along,

Perhaps after I sing you a song,

Maybe I'm hallucinating,

Maybe I'm just waiting,

Maybe it's just the same pain,

All alone again.

The Spam Mail Which Caught My Attention

When things in your life seem , almost too much to handle, When 24 Hours in a day is not enough, Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee. A professor stood before his philosophy class And had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students, if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.

He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full.

The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.' The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed. 'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things - family, children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions – Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car. The sand is everything else --The small stuff. 'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So... Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play With your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. 'Take care of the golf balls first -- The things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. 'I'm glad you asked'. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

How?

I was searching for answers.. and then it came to me..

How does one get over something you hold dear?

You don't. If it's meant to be, it'll come back to you sooner or later.

If for some strange reasons it still doesn't return after ages of wait, know that you'll never 'get over' something like that, but it's still going to be okay.

This is because, such event punches a huge hole in your life; and that hole never goes away, so at first you're always falling into it. You try throwing boards across it, but they're unreliable. They break, they rot, they slip, you slip.

Then you try to fill it in; but you can't tell how deep it is, so you can't tell how much life it's going to take to fill it, or where you're going to get it from.

Besides, whatever you throw in it is gone, buried. Your only real alternative is to build more life around the hole.

The more life you build, the smaller a part of your whole life it is, and the easier it is to navigate around it without falling in.

Turning Point

It was stunning,

To finally being able to breath again,

Without pondering,

Without the attached pain,

Of what if's and what not.

To be able to live your life without regret,

There are stuffs you'll never forget,

And stuffs you'll always keep to your heart,

But whatever is, don't be afraid to love,

In whatever place,

Or for the change,

Just let it be.

And pray you can live with your choice,

If you have regrets on your wake,

Then it's time you fix it at your own pace,

Not doing so, would just not be smart,

Whether it's reconnecting with the past,

Or just throwing it all to your last effort.

The past is something you learn from, you MUST act on the present to shape the future.

Farewell..

Torn 3

Someday we're figure this all out,
Whether it's a lie or not,
And just how good it can get,
Simply by enjoying the beautiful sunset,
Take a walk with me,
Things might not be the same,
But the moment spent and taken,
Can never be forgotten.

Torn 2

Been talking to myself lately,
My mind is drifting apart slowly,
Wondering whether anything I do is right,
She might be gone without a thought,
I'm clinging to hope,
Hoping it's not too late,
It's another day for pain,
Another day for the rain,
I try to hold this tears,
By overcoming my fears,
Are you there?
Or am I just a bore...

Torn

I was torn between my own decisions and time,

I've always wonder if there's a right or wrong choice,

Whether there's a turning point to your heart,

As I am slowly falling apart,

I don't know what's there do,

As all I need for you to say it isn't so,

There's only so much a heart can take,

Hoping it's not fake,

But between the rights and wrongs,

My life could be sang by so many sad songs,

Watching as you slowly drift away,

Being without you everyday.

Her Diamonds

Oh what the hell she says
I just can't win for losing
And she lays back down
Man there's so many times
I don't know what I’m doin'
Like I don't know now

By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Says it's funny how the night
Can make you blind
I can just imagine
And I don't know what I’m supposed to do
But if she feels bad then I do too
So I let her be

And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
She’s down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down

She sits down and stares into the distance
And it takes all night
And I know I could break her concentration
But it don't feel right

By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Sits down on the bed and starts to cry
And there's something less about her
And I don't know what I’m supposed to do
So I sit down and I cry too
And don't let her see

And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
She’s down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down

She shuts out the night
Tries to close her eyes
If she can find daylight
She’ll be all right
She’ll be all right
Just not tonight

And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
She’s down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down


Rob Thomas - Her Diamonds

Hello You

I was looking around,
I never knew that you could be found,
But there you were,
Right in front of me,
Whenever I'm with you my troubles seem to fade away,
And finally for once, I feel I'm breathing,
My heart was taken away by your smile,
Hoping you'll stay a little while,
How could I be so blind,
I never knew you were in my mind,
Isn't life unbelievable,
You were there when I just lost hope.

Hello You.. :)

Again

The same crossings,
The same pain,
Again and again,
Waiting for it to pass,
Hoping it to be a miss,
Instead of a loss,
Of what was thought after time and time,
Was it too late,
Was it fate,
It's the same situation,
In a different direction,
Without a hint of satisfaction,
But for the sake of infatuation, motivation, and application.

The Beginning of The End

I'm building, or more specifically drawing something new.

It's going to be

Legend ... wait for it..... darrryy.....

Wassup MACHA!

I Need Another Me

There's not enough time,
I need another me,
So many choices,
So many faces,
Even the act of being inactive is actually an action,
It's a different sensation,
So many paths,
So many decisions,
You wish you could walk them all,
Standing tall,
Whether it's wrong or right,
Whether it's day or night,
You feel out of touch,
When you could regret something so much,
Not knowing whether of the end result,
Thinking its your fault,
Wondering what will happen if another path was taken,
Hoping you're the awaken.

The Call

I'm waiting for a call,
Right across the hall,
Wondering when it would ring,
Waiting over nothing,
Hoping it will be something,
Maybe I could sing,
Then maybe it would ring,
What a strange little thing.

Holding On

You feel a little strange,
When you feel the usual fiery hate,
Or perhaps the passionate love,
That you once used to have seem to lose it's natural taste,
The guidance of thy will and desire,
Can no longer satisfy what's to come,
It's like being trapped in a maze,
Trying to move,
Trying to live,
Wondering whether I'm progressing in the puzzle of life.

Moo

The day of red packets,
The day where you see exploding rockets,
Extremely sweet mandarin oranges,
The day where kids drink alcoholic beverages,
Yes, it's that day again,
The day where eating too much is not a sin, *yeah right*

But what the heck,
Happy *Niu* Year... :)

Random Thought

Where's the light at the end of the tunnel when you need it?

Exam Feeling

This is what I'm feeling...













Feeling *dead* after putting the flag up...

Scream

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current State of Mind

I picked up the book,
It gave me a strange look,
It was staring back at me,
Felt like love,
Or is it more like hate,
A hate like?
Or a love like hate?
True love hate like?
Freight, Surcharges/Discounts, Taxes, Price?
Good Issue, Picking Packing?
Transfer Order? Consignment Fill up?
Consignment Reverse Order, Consignment Pick Up?
Completion A? Completion B?

Craving

Don't you say a word tonight,
Just give me one more minute,
To say these words of mine,
I'm caught with a sight,
Being here all alone,
But it's alright,
Coming home late at night,
In this christmas eve,
Such a strange twist of fate,
A crazy man being blue,
Over something silly as taste.



turrrpPPPOorrkkkYyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Choices

Torn between two hard choices...


Turk??


or


Pork??





Life is so sad... :(

Strange Love

It doesn't seem to make sense,
I can't find the perfect taste,
Searching high and low for your secret love,
Hoping that such love would be returned to me,
Your smell haunts me as I walk pass the corner,
It makes my heart beat weaker and weaker,
My legs begin to tremble in awe of your beauty,
The sight of you just seems to make my day,








How can I move on when I'm still in love with you?

Dedication

Another day,
For another say,
I swear I wanted to give you a holler,
But I don't have your number,
Perhaps that sounded cliche,
But I guess that's just part of me,


Whatever it is, all I really wanted to say,

Was... Happy B'Day Livon!!!!

P.S :- Here's a cheap-ass cake picture for you..kekeke ^_^

Turning Point

Close your eyes,
Listen as the music fade,
Those awful cries,
The cries of your heart as she begin to leave,

I'll always be around to keep an eye,
How could I leave someone with such a wonderful smile,
Seeing your face everywhere,
Your actions were so sincere,

Yet I turn my face away,
When I knew my whole world would turn grey,
I knew you'll never love me,
Though I knew you were the one.

Shine

Our life is like a candle,
Shining brightly for a moment,
Only wise ones would appreciate,
The beauty of it's enchantment,
Though the candle's time is limited,
It continues to shine brightly,
Till it reaches it's end,
So don't you dare to live aimlessly,
For our time is short,
And we'll never know what will happen.


So what have you done today worthy of a shine?

Repetition

A routine activity,
A pleasure without creativity,
A certain choice,
Not through the fate of a dice,
Unsure of the path,
Wondering what's beyond death,
Perhaps you could understand the situation,
Of your direction,
Maybe once,
Unlikely twice.

Pork

I'm not a dork,
I just want to eat pork,
I don't need a fork,
I just need to have my pork,
Not a duck,
But just plain old pork,
It's not a lot of work,
Just get me my pork.

Come With Me

It's the simplest thing,
Of the simplest feeling,
Take me to your heart,
Just make sure we're not apart,
Give me your hand,
I'll bring you to a new land,
Where we could sit enjoy the cool breeze,
Listen to your heart and be amaze,
Let nothing stop your imagination,
Bring your soul to a state of affirmation,
To understand it's glory and beauty,
In a state of clarity.

The Quest For

B . A . B . I

The Square Root of 3 Poem

The most awesome poem I've encountered :-


I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed.


- Harold & Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay

Glimmer

I want to put your picture in the frame,
Making sure it will always stay the same,
To live a lie for that one short moment,
Holding on to that small piece of attachment,
I cannot undo the past,
As nothing seem to last,
But as long as I'm alive I feel I have the chance,
To perhaps atone,
But is it necessary?
Or maybe just fallacy.

Ramblings

Would you say those words again?
Beneath the surface under the rain,
It's just a whisper that I'm trying to hear,
Trying so hard to be near,
Yet, all efforts were in vain,
Nothing I could do to ease the pain,
You could walk a thousand miles,
And see many exiles,
Exiles of your own thought,
Tainted by what was sought.

Right...

Lol, bite me..*evil laughs*

Boredom..

Bye

Dream

I was searching frantically for a reason,
Based on my silly vision,
Please be there I prayed,
Only to find out that my feelings were betrayed,
Hold on to me I said,
Don't be afraid,
There's always tomorrow,
So spread your wings like a sparrow,
Soaring above the skies without a care for the world,
Where I become your shield,
A tear fell from my eye,
As I saw you smile.

TechTalk...

Above It All

Cycling by the tracks of the valley,
Seeing familiar signs and enjoying the sweet taste of honey,
Such a lovely sight being on top of it all,
A sweet memory that I would love to recall,
Spreading your arms and feeling the breeze,
All your troubles just seem to dematerialize,
Don't you just wish for it to end,
I just wish you didn't feel offended,
But such words are my truth,
Which is the cost of my youth,
Above it all,
I hope you stand tall.

Food

Caution

A Fool

An algorithm for perfection,
An act of passion,
When you thought it's over,
You feel like dancing on the dance floor,
Every action has its own reaction,
To what ends meet anticipation,
My love has always been a one way street,
For that I've always lived without regret,
Was I ever feeling what I need,
It's like we've just gotten acquainted,
It feels like jumping off a plane,
Nothing beats being insane,
Will it ever end,
Or perhaps it's just better descend,
From wherever I am,
Or whatever you dream,
I won't look back,
Heck, I'll just grab a snack,
Sitting here waiting,
Accumulating,
All these false hopes and fats,
Being stepped like bloody doormats.

Hmm

"If you seek to aid everyone that suffers in the galaxy, you will only weaken yourself … and weaken them. It is the internal struggles, when fought and won on their own, that yield the strongest rewards. You stole that struggle from them, cheapened it. If you care for others, then dispense with pity and sacrifice and recognize the value in letting them fight their own battles. And when they triumph, they will be even stronger for the victory."

―Kreia to Jedi Exile (Knights of the Old Republic II)

Bloody

Bloody wisdom tooth,
Like Jedi's little Sith,
Such a small part,
Giving tremendous pressure to your heart,
Trying to sleep,
But all you can say is *beep*.

Pain

Something has been bugging me for ages,
Its been going on and on for days,
The end nerve of my jaw,
It's like a needle on a cat's paw,
Here I am lying down,
Beginning to frown,
Wasting my time over and over again,
Annoyed with this bloody pain,


frigging wisdom tooth...

...

LOL!

^.^

MmMMmmm

Ramblings

Would you stay a while?
She was there,
I was here,
There is there,
Here is here,
You know you're insane,
When you keep your mind in a file,
Or was it me?
Or what has become?

Just Another Day

It was late at night,
I'm still stuck here for the night,
Doing something for the future,
Hoping that its not too late,
It didn't take too long,
I finished it and began to play my favourite song,
I took my time,
I knew it was Valentine,
Driving around the pyramid like it's driving test,
Finding a spot for my dearest,
Settled down and stared at the sky,
Hoping that time would fly,
Always never knowing what would happen,
Longing to see the moon.

Classic

Fly

Staring at the sky hoping to fly,
Praying it's not my time everyday,
A silly prayer over a silly life,
Knowing that tomorrow is another hassle,
Don't want to make it up,
Didn't plan for it to flop,
Life depends on what he decides,
I don't want to choose sides,
Who is he,
I don't know but I guess I fade,
Wishing to fly far away from here,
Only to fall flat on your face.

Ramblings

I saw you before,
It was such an eyesore,
Or maybe it was a dream again,
But I can feel no pain,
If I could turn back time,
Would it be the same,
Probably not,
Guess I am nut,
Or does it even matter,
Here's my heart on a silver platter.

驚くこと

Was it twisted fate?
We used to have the same smile,
Perhaps the same pride as well,
But now is something which I can't tell,
Standing tall above an ivory tower of nothingness,
Only known by it's foolishness,
What is this glow I see beyond the horizon,
Something which kept me going on,
Such feeble thoughts,
Such captivating sights,
Every step tuned towards your heartbeat,
Emotions covered by a tainted sight,
When you begin to rationalize,
You begin to understand more about it without feeling daze.

Ashes

Staring outside the window at the forgotten shape,
Hoping it would be a twist of fate,
I was torn apart,
Not knowing of the sight,
Let alone to watch it swell,
It was so dull,
Like pieces falling from the night sky,
Not even a sight of joy,
It rips apart everything i hold dear,
I was told not to have fear,
But it's the only thing which kept me going,
Which kept me breathing.

o_O?

I was trying something,
Perhaps it involves a little singing,
Though it would be disturbing,
But I'm pretty sure it would be fun,
Like having a picnic under the sun,
Or shooting yourself with a gun,
Wait a minute was that right,
But it could be an awful sight,
Then again you won't see anything since it's night.

O_o?

It's Over

Memory

Why do you give such a frown,
Don't you dare drown,
It's not like I won't see you again,
Though all I can feel is this unbearable pain,
I don't you want you to leave,
I just want you to be,
Whatever you choose to be,
And whatever your heart desires,
I'm no longer the person I thought I was few years back,
I can feel my heart being a little bit black,
Or perhaps it was just my feelings,
As I stare at the ceiling,
Waiting for something,
Knowing there's nothing.

Thoughts

As I stare at the beautiful golden sand,
As I took another step on this alluring land,
I was captivated by it's scenes,
Yet irritated by the unforeseen circumstances,
I've yet to grasp the concept,
Perhaps I was still inept,
But the taint and stupidity was unacceptable,
If only I was a little capable,
Then maybe it would work,
Instead of acting like a dork.

Morning

The sunshine wakes me up from my slumber,
Hopefully I'll be a little sober,
Mmm such joy,
Mmm I feel like I can fly,
As I thought I was about to be gone,
It sends the shiver to my funny-bone,
It's a new day,
There's lot of things to say,
But I hope you have the time,
And you stay the same,
It's a new beginning,
To start thinking,
To start moving,
And to start working.

Outside

I'm on the outside looking on the inside,
Hoping not to fade,
Wishing for tomorrow,
Feeling my heart beating slow,
Waiting for something,
Hoping for nothing,
The things you wanted to say,
Save it for another day,
I don't feel like hearing,
I don't feel like thinking,
Watching from the outside,
Seeing it being ripped apart from the inside..

Blood

The dashing colour of red,
The tainted yet beautiful,
The significance colour of the dead,
The art of a fool,
What's not to bleed,
Is a sign of being bored,
Of self-inflicting pain enthusiasm,
Towards what is called an asylum,
For the fainted heart and soul,
Towards being a pitiful ghoul.

Ramblings

It's time to get up your feet,
It's the moment where we should meet,
You hear a voice,
As you roll the dice,
The dice of fate,
As you're about to open the gate,
The possibilities which you can achieve seems infinite,
Without a doubt,
You can accomplish what you have thought.

Ramblings

The bed I sleep has become my coffin,
I was at the crossing eating my muffin,
Wondering how it even got there,
And wondering what they were,
I couldn't feel fear at that moment,
They were staring back at me at the bent,
Their eyes were drown with sorrow,
And I was feeling blue and mellow,
I waved at them,
There were no response from them,
Where am I?
I could not speak,
The air grows thinner every moment,
I'm trapped,
Let me out,
Maybe that's not what I thought.

Weirdness

I died in my dreams today,
That feeling was so gay,
It's like eating on hay,
Though eating hay would also be gay,
I've never felt like that before,
The heart feeling so sore,
Lazing around,
Hoping to be found,
Only to scream,
And stuck eating a piece of ham.

Morning Blues

You wake up in the morning,
Hoping you're still living,
But your heart wishes otherwise,
You begin to lose track of time,
Wondering whether to continue your sleep,
Or to start a new day without having to stop,
I'm not sure what the future holds for me,
I'm not certain whether you're right for me,
I do not recognize the man I see the mirror,
Or this person who I hear from far,
These voices are haunting in my sleep,
Though I feel I'm at the top,
I don't know where I am,
And that has cause me to hit rock-bottom,
I don't know what is this,
I just pray i know the right words.

Still Alive

This was a triumph.
I'm making a note here: HUGE SUCCESS.
It's hard to overstate my satisfaction.
Aperture Science
We do what we must
because we can.
For the good of all of us.
Except the ones who are dead.
But there's no sense crying over every mistake.
You just keep on trying till you run out of cake.
And the Science gets done.
And you make a neat gun.
For the people who are still alive.
I'm not even angry.
I'm being so sincere right now.
Even though you broke my heart.
And killed me.
And tore me to pieces.
And threw every piece into a fire.
As they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you!
Now these points of data make a beautiful line.
And we're out of beta.
We're releasing on time.
So I'm GLaD. I got burned.
Think of all the things we learned
for the people who are still alive.
Go ahead and leave me.
I think I prefer to stay inside.
Maybe you'll find someone else to help you.
Maybe Black Mesa
THAT WAS A JOKE.
HAHA. FAT CHANCE.
Anyway, this cake is great.
It's so delicious and moist.
Look at me still talking
when there's Science to do.
When I look out there, it makes me GLaD I'm not you.
I've experiments to run.
There is research to be done.
On the people who are still alive.
And believe me I am still alive.
I'm doing Science and I'm still alive.
I feel FANTASTIC and I'm still alive.
While you're dying I'll be still alive.
And when you're dead I will be still alive.
STILL ALIVE (x2)



Funky song from Portal... here's the link

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RthZgszykLs

Get the game if you have the money, it's worth it ..


The link for the song
http://files.filefront.com/portal+still+aliverar/;8768347;/fileinfo.html

Ramblings

Was looking for a reason,
Finding for a motivation,
Just a son,
Who became a man,
I don't know what's ahead of me,
But I'm sure I can't be the same,
I can't let it happen,
It's a reason,
Or is a liability,
Perhaps if I understand it fully,
But who am I to judge,
I'm not even a sage,
Why am I acting so old,
I'm feeling bald,
Then again I already am,
Who knows???

C'est La Vie (That is life)

I want to jump off a plane,
You can call me insane,
It's not like I cared anyway,
I know you should never let a chance fly by,
As time only move forward,
And me being weird,
Life just seems to be simple that way,
Whether it's just fishing at the bay,
Looking at people's reaction,
Whether it is giving affection,
Or receiving a kick on the groin,
Perhaps picking up a coin,
To have a fortune told,
Or turning things into gold,
It's all up to the individual,
You can take a dive like a seal,
To enjoy the calm of the ocean,
Or be an asshole just to be mean,
Like it or not,
It's what you got,

Past

I couldn't say sorry,
Don't worry,
It will all be okay,
As long as I remembered what to say,
Don't you cry,
It's just a small fry,
You'll find another one soon,
So just have some fun,
If you keep thinking about the past,
You'll end up being last,
Falling behind,
Losing your mind,
Wishing you could turn back time,
Wishing everything could be the same,
Losing your feelings,
Losing your senses,
Staring blankly,
Repeating the lullaby,
Thinking it over and over again,
And when you start to feel pain,
That is when you know you're alive,
And you know you have to move.

Out of My Mind

You keep me running,
Going and coming,
Everyday you change your mind,
Someone like you is hard to find,
You drive me crazy,
Making me so sleazy,
Life is a game,
And you're taking your time,
I love this feeling of being out of control,
Is like living without a goal,
Where there are no strings attached,
And your problems are detached.

Complicated Heart

It's hard to hold a conversation,
With all this distraction,
The feelings I have is tough,
I feel my words are not enough,
Why are you looking at me that way?
Do you have something say?
You're smiling again,
Am I being a pain?
Or do you just find my actions silly,
If only I could understand you fully,
Then I won't make wrong judgments,
And perhaps I could make some amendments,
Being in the elevator,
Seeing that you being a star,
Consuming the air I breath,
Like some sort of Dark Sith,
But I've seen you before,
I've never seen you tore,
Nor have I seen you fall,
You've always stood tall,
Speaking your mind and heart desire,
Hearing your voice only makes me want you more,
It was captivating,
It was exhilarating,
I don't understand myself anymore,
Why am I being such a sore.

Tired

I'm so tired,
I'm staring at my bed,
Gazing at the stars,
Flipping the pages,
Waiting for the time to pass by,
Enjoying my favorite lullaby,
Looking through cards and pictures,
Laughing at all those funny faces,
Being emotional over nothing,
Tried laughing,
Didn't work,
Hoping I'll get my mind back,
Taking my time,
Being my own pace,
Falling asleep,
Taking a nap.

Core Dump

I got a core dump,
I'm feeling so slump,
I got another 6 hours before my due date,
Perhaps I should accept my fate,
Been killing my brain cells,
I'm hearing the ringing of the bells,
It's about time,
But I'm feeling the same,
I don't want to quit,
But all I can do is sit,
Such a day,
Come what may,
If only i could simplify,
Then I could rectify,
Screw this,
What a fuss,
I'm off to bed,
Don't want to be sad.

Broken Thread

Missing the days,
Missing the nights,
Feeling sorry for what I've done,
Seeing that you're gone,
Maybe you were right,
Maybe I've should have fight,
But it was too late,
As I could see you walking towards the gate,
I wish I could say the words,
But my faint heart could not play the proper chords,
I'm regretting over the past,
Wish my heart could get over it fast,
You will always be there in my heart,
It's like a never-ending art,
The waves of my love,
Like the beautiful wings of the dove,
I could never forget your voice,
As it has always given me grace,
I do not seek forgiveness,
I only hope you found happiness.

Coding Jumping

I've seen this before,
There is it again through the core,
Why wouldn't you compile?
Why couldn't I handle this file?
Why am I doing this again?
Is there anything to gain?
I'm losing my mind,
It's not like it could find,
Was it the syntax,
Or did it went to the wrong fax,
Perhaps I'm doing it wrong,
Perhaps I'm hitting the gong,
Is not liked you care,
Is not liked I gave you a dare,
I wasn't pretending,
I was just coding,
Maybe a little compiling,
And a little dreaming,
It's another while statement,
Or is a switch management,
This if doesn't look right,
Oh it's such an awful sight.

Tralala (Random)

It's a day,
It's at a bay,
What's there to say,
Come what may,
I know not you,
You know not I,
I don't care,
But you gave a dare,
It's a bee,
For what's to see,
Jumping in glee,
There it is, let's flee!!!!


Song Recommendation:
Funky beat (From an ex-member of M2M)
Marit Larsen - Don't Save Me
Marit Larsen - Under The Surface (My Fav)
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Enjoy!

Tomfoolery

We all heard it before,
And we've always wanted more,
We wouldn't want nothing but to touch,
But doing so will be too much,
As it will be too late,
Till we make our first mistake,
I know what I did was wrong,
But you don't know what you got till it's gone,
When everyday seem so long,
All you wanted to do is to sit under the sun,
And have some fun.

Lost For Words

I was seeking for a direction,
It was a harmless intention,
But I was stuck at this location,
Looking a way out for this situation,
All I could do is to weep in desperation,
When all I wanted to do was to hold you in admiration,
Whether it's right or wrong it's just an intuition,
A possible infatuation,
Which I hope you could have a conversation,
To which is of an observation,
Perhaps to my examination,
Of what I thought was my emotion.

Solitario

Let the silence be your friend,
Let your mind take you away,
Let no one take away your freedom,
To want something,
To need something,
Being in imperfect place,
Where it's hard to see a friendly face,
Where asylum could only shape your soul,
Let the world keep spinning around,
Let nothing disturb you especially an angry hound,
Watch the world burn as it slowly destroy itself,
Clinging to hope,
Holding on to faith,
Knowing it's inevitable.

^_^

A little test for those who know me..LOL

Create your own Friend Test here

Infinite Loop

I got this song stuck to my head for days,
Just spreading the love.. :)

Fushigi Purupuru Pururin Rin!

Puru puru pururin pururin
Puru puru pururin purupururin
Puru puru pururin pururin

Onna no ko wa fushigi na koto ni
Keetai dake ja ikiteyukenai
Mune ippai no ai to yuuki ga taisetsu nano yo

Atashi pururin purupururin
Pururin purupururin
Rinrin purupurupururin pururu

Mashumaro mitai ni
Honwa ka de
Uruurushichau
Yume to kibou no yume to kibou no
Mahou shoujo
Sore ga atashi nano yo

Puru puru pururin pururin
Puru puru pururin purupururin
Puru puru pururin pururin

Onna no ko wa fushigi na koto ni
Meeru dake ja manzoku dekinai
Rusuroku ippai anata no koe de
Tokimeki ga hoshii no

Atashi pururin purupururin
Pururin purupururin
Rinrin purupurupururin pururu

Mahou no chikara wa
Hora soko ni
Ureshiku nacchau
Yume wa kibou ni kibou wa yume ni
Mahou shoujo
Honto ni anata kamo ne

Mashumaro mitai ni
Honwa ka de
Uruurushichau
Yume to kibou no yume to kibou no
Mahou shoujo
Sore ga atashi nana yo

Puru puru pururin pururin
Puru puru pururin purupururin
Puru puru pururin pururin

Puru puru pururin pururin
Puru puru pururin purupururin
Puru puru pururin pururin

Caged

Every night it seems like there's no tomorrow,
I'm caught in a dream and I can't get out,
I'm caught in a dream and endless dream,
Wherever you are, I hope you're happy now,
For whatever it is, I'm just another fallout,
For whoever it was, I just hope you can scream,
To say what you truly feel,
To be what you really want,
To stay with what you hoped,
And there you are,
No where to be found,
Here I am,
Dreaming over nothing again,
Stuck again,
Free in a certain sense,
Free in what is not and is,
Or to be caged in what is something called freedom.

Freedom

I was once trapped and stripped from my freedom,
Entangled by religion, faith and expectations,
I've never enjoyed such entanglement,
It's as if you're choking everytime you take a breath,
It's like a bird trapped in a cage,
Unable to sing songs of love and freedom,
Such imprisonment will not do any good to any living soul,
It takes away creativity and the will to live,
When you control a being and strip it of its willpower,
It'll be nothing but a meaningless thing,
No longer a being or a soul,
It's reduced to a thing,
As it only becomes a possesion of something or somewhat else,
The right to believe,
The right to speak your mind,
As by giving control to an individual,
They begin to feel power,
They begin to feel as if they are masters of their own destiny,
Fight for your freedom,
Being free is what defines a true being of life,
Don't live your life in imprisonment,
Be an eagle soaring high and mighty..

Before It's Too Late

Another day passes,
I watch as the countless minutes begin to runaway,
I try to chase them,
But it was pointless cause,
I tried to speak to you,
I couldn't say the words that were on my mind,
Instead I only mutter insignificant words,
Though it prolonged our meeting,
My heart was too feeble,
To say those few words,
It may seem like a lost cause,
But for someone such as myself,
To hear your wonderful lips speak,
To feel your heavenly eyes staring back at me,
To smell your sensational aroma,
That itself should suffice,
Should I or should I not?
The clock is ticking,
My time is running,
Is it really too late.

Gift of Faith

Drops of heaven kept pouring down,
It was cold and lonely night,
It felt as if it could never end,
I longed for this ever-lasting moment,
As you were there at that moment,
Even now I still feel you,
I felt your presence every second of the day,
Even now you're still sitting right next to my heart,
You're the angel of my night,
You're the wind that kept my sail going,
You were there even when you're away,
I'm thankful everyday,
Even if it was for a short heartbeat moment,
I was overjoyed by your presence,
As it was a gift that I could cherish,
Even at the end of time..

Right There

I'm no hero,
I'm no guardian angel,
I'm just a man,
I tried to reach for you,
But I fear it's too far,
I tried to call you,
But you were no longer there,
Where are you?
Where am I?
Am I too late?
I know I'm longer there for you,
I know I can't be there for you,
But when you need me,
When you need a friend,
When you've lost your northern star,
Always know I'm there,
If I'm not,
Know that someone/something will be at my place.

The Calling

I can hear it calling,
It's whispering my name,
I can feel it's echo,
It's coming closer,
It feels so right,
Yet it so wrong,
It's thumping,
Again and again,
it's as if the hours are running away from you,
I feel it,
I yearn for it,
but "don't go" as someone called out to you
I must , I will it's my time,
No you mustn't
And she cries and begs
For you not to go
To only see that he's already gone
What can she do?
What else she can do?
Nothing... as it is already too late
She tried to run after him
But she cannot catch up
What if she took the TAXI??

-__^""" *spoiler!!*



Special Thanks: Elizabeth (Blue Fonts)

Sanctuary

When you take a stroll in the night,
You hope you can find peace,
Through the whispers of the wind,
Your heart falls into a state of trance,
A trance which you wish you will never be awaken of,
As the soul begins to drift apart,
You begin to feel nothing and be one of nature,
The problems of life seem to fade away,
You cherish the moment,
You wish it will never end,
You try to prolong this feeling,
For every equivalent pain,
There's an incomparison pleasure,
Find the place,
The person,
Who might and which may make your dream come true,
To a sanctuary which you'll hide forever without a care,
I've once found that place,
But it was not my time yet,
I hope you find yours,
Whether it is in someone's heart or in another world.

Slumber

The clock is ticking,
You look around yourself to see yourself pondering,
Anxious and thinking,
Hoping and believing,
To see and to cling to whatever you feel is right,
Wishing it'll continue,
Hoping it will never end,
It's like a blind faith you thought will come true,
It's a narrow path which you hope you would never take,
You wish for the end but you only see the beginning,
The beginning which begins to suffocate you,
It's like you're clinging into life,
Yet you feel you have nothing,
To what you hope will not come true,
To what you wish will not be,
To whom you wish will become,
To whom you wish to be with,
Wake up,
Wake up,
WAKE UP before it's too late....

Where You Lead

Loving you the way I do
I only wanna be with you
And I would go to the ends of the earth
Cause, darling, to me that's what you're worth

Where you lead, I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need, you need me to be with you
I will follow where you lead

If you're out on the road
Feeling lonely, and so cold
All you have to do is call my name
And I'll be there on the next train

Where you lead, I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need, you need me to be with you
I will follow where you lead

I always wanted a real home with flowers on the window sill
But if you want to live in New York City, honey, you know I will

I never thought I could get satisfaction from just one man
But if anyone can keep me happy, you're the one who can

And where you lead, I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need, you need me to be with you
I will follow where you lead (repeat)


From : Gilmore Girls OST
Note : Updates will be coming soon =)


*drools*