Just One of Those Days

It's funny

It`s funny how hello always ends with a goodbye,
it`s funny how good memories can start to make you cry.
It`s funny how forever never really seems to last,
it`s funny how much you`d lose if you forgot about your past.
It`s funny how friends can just leave you when you`re down,
it`s funny how when you need someone they`re never around.
It`s funny how people change and think they`re so much better,
it`s funny how many lies can be packed in one "love letter".
It`s funny how people forgive even though they can't forget,
it`s funny how one night can contain so much regret.
It`s funny how ironic life turns out to be
but the funniest part of all, none of that`s funny to me.

-- Somewhere in the internet...

Fakes

Never in my life,

I thought this was safe,

But it was all a bunch of lies,

I can see it in your eyes,

I'm tired of your excuses,

I'm tired of your hypocrisy,

I don't have time for this,

It's the same shit everyday,

I ran out of things to say to you,

And I couldn't be bothered,

You're still you,

It's your turn to take the lead,

Fool me once shame on you,

Fool me twice shame on me.

Turning Point

It's been like forever,

It looks like a never,

I got my back against the wall,

Still I'm standing tall,

This looks familiar,

Yet it appears to be so far,

Sounds like the story of my life,

Just when you just wanted be safe,

Life hits you hard straight to your testicles,

And you can feel as if you're forming bubbles,

But you know you got to move,

There's no time,

You have to get up,

You have to fix your own screwup,

The only person you can count is nobody but yourself,

It's time to throw the sorries and the goodbyes to the shelf,

Get up...get up now...before it's too late.

Fading

Here I am waiting,

Can't stop the feeling,

It's always been like this,

I can't help to feel as if something is amiss,

I'm trying to figure it out,

As the big tree was once a little nut,

Which held is ground,

But all you wanted is to be safe & sound,

I'm not sure what I'm suppose to do now,

For you or for me,

They say I put on a show,

But in fact, I was just trying to live my life..... :(

=(

I want sleep, but sleep doesn't want me...

Wind Beneath Your Wings

One day you'll find the light again,

And you'll never feel the same pain,

Don't be overcome by sadness,

Let your love lead through the darkness,

It may seem lonely at first,

But all you need is the sudden burst,

A tiny spark to light your way,

Till it's time for a new day.

:)

Humility

Every breath you take,
Every wrong turn you make,
There's a mistake,
A mistake of thinking about the word "ME",

And when you thought you could live with it,
Reality comes in and kicks you right into the pit,
Then you wonder is there a right or wrong,
Or whether it's just a crazy song,

Thoughts become actions,
Actions become justifications,
Justification to a cause,
Like a short fuse,

Burning just a for moment,
Enough to scare away everything,
And suddenly you turn silent,
Knowing your life is decided by the supreme being,

You begin to understand humility goes a long way.

Perspective

You probably heard a story,

Which probably says I'm crazy,

Alone drinking my cup of tea,

Trapped in the roaring sea,

And just when I thought I was safe,

You found me in my hiding place,

I don't know what to say,

As I'm just hoping for another day.

Wave after wave of emotions,

After countless execution of operations,

Nothing seems to work,

Then finally you decided to close the bottle with the cork,

And just for that one day,

You dropped the bottle,

And you wish you could've stay,

But you're now crippled,

Not knowing what to do,

You decided on the next best thing,

To let the winds and waves of the sea,

To take you to your next destination.

:)

Was a little down,
And there she was turning my frown,
Into a smile,
You took the extra mile,

For that, I am grateful,
And here I am with a little tearful,
It's like you could read my mind,
When I was a little blind,

I was a little sleepy when you woke me up,
You nudged me like a little buttercup,
It's strange the simplest things in life keep you going,
And for a moment, it felt like you could take upon almost anything,

I'm not sure what happens tomorrow,
But I'm glad you're here to remove my sorrow,

I want you to know I'll always have your back,
Even if the whole world turn against you,
So just layback,
And know that you need not worry if you have problems you can't handle on you.

Crazy

A segment of my usual group chat.

He's CrazyZal. He's already on the other side. Once he is crazy, there is no turning back for him.

Move

I'm looking back at something,
On something which is now nothing,
I know I'm crazy,
And now I'm being plain lazy,

But I know I have to move,
With or without love,
It's funny how a simple message can light up your day,
And sometimes the most hurtful things are the things you say,

God grant me strength,
As I'm losing my faith,
But I still thank you for the things you have done for me,
I've no regrets if this is my time,

My heart is in your hands,
I'm not sure if I'll ever understand,
But I'll never stop,
Not even at the last drop.

Arigato

I know this isn't the end,
It's merely the beginning,
It's like being a quicksand,
Trapped and wondering,

Trying to set yourself free,
Only seeing yourself sink even deeper,
Can't you see,
It's nothing but a faint whisper,

Waiting for it to stop,
Waiting for a rope,
Just like a raindrop,
Just a small trickle of hope.


Thank you...

Faith

Well I guess it would be nice
If I could touch your body
I know not everybody
Has got a body like you

But I've got to think twice
Before I give my heart away
And I know all the games you play
Because I play them too

Oh but I
Need some time off from that emotion
Time to pick my heart up off the floor
And when that love comes down
Without devotion
Well it takes a strong man baby
But I'm showing you the door

'Cause I gotta have faith...

Baby
I know you're asking me to stay
Say please, please, please, don't go away
You say I'm giving you the blues
Maybe
You mean every word you say
Can't help but think of yesterday
And another who tied me down to loverboy rules

Before this river
Becomes an ocean
Before you throw my heart back on the floor
Oh baby I reconsider
My foolish notion
Well I need someone to hold me
But I'll wait for something more

Yes I've gotta have faith...

George Michael - Faith

*MmmMmmmmMmmMM*

A little loose

I thought it would last,
That's why I kept looking back at the past,
It was the sweetest mistake,
Yet here I stand, walking alone by the lake,

I don't need you to understand,
You never did,
It feels like I'm trapped alone in an island,
Like a star which is now an asteroid,

Falling and falling,
Seems like it's never stopping,
I sit here, waiting for a sign,
Like a self-destruct campaign,

Which I'm trying to deactivate,
I hope you won't be late,
Cause I'm not sure how long I can hold,
I don't know what you were told,
But I'm only a shadow of my former self,
Like a broken clock on top of a dusty shelf.

God, I could use a little help.

Mask

I know that look,

You're holding back,

You're afraid to get hurt,

As I'm covered with dirt,

I'm smiling,

Trying to hide the faint cry in my heart,

I'm laughing,

Ignoring the missing pieces that is now apart,

I don't know what to say,

I'm losing myself day by day,

I'm afraid to talk,

Fearing what I say will only scare you away,

I begin to fall and sulk,

Wishing I knew the words to say,

So I stand here, looking from a distance,

Content with just the smile in your face,

Wearing a mask as you look upon me,

Hoping it will hold,

My heart is bleeding inside,

But my desire will never be said,

As I'm tired,

A little scared and afraid,

Losing the pieces which completes me,

Trying to look the same.

By wearing a mask with a smile on the face,

Hiding whatever emotions, in order to move at my own pace.

Broken

Trying to mend the pieces,
The pieces of what was broken,
The pieces which was covered with lies,
My heart begins to darken,

It begins to lose it's usual calm,
Like it is stuck in another realm,

I tried picking the pieces up,
Only to cut myself deeper,
Tried getting myself up,
Only to be trapped within my own temper,

I had my doubts,
I paid my debts,
It didn't seem enough,
Trying to break through,

Here I lie broken again,
Trying to find some meaning,
Hoping to end the pain,
Broken and barely breathing.

The Blank Pages

God, if you're there,

I could use a sign,

I don't know how I fare,

It was just a simple design,

I'm beginning to lose it,

There are no more candles which I see lit,

The darkness is what's left,

My heart is now soft,

It's not as strong as it use to be,

Maybe it's just me,

But I could use a little help,

I'm beating myself up into a pulp.

Pressing On

A little tired,
A little exhausted,
Running out of time,
Torn with a choice,
There's no turning back now,
No time for sorrow,
No time for fear,
Must protect the things you hold dear.

Out of the frying pan, into the fire..

Nuff said... :'(