Thoughts

As I stare at the beautiful golden sand,
As I took another step on this alluring land,
I was captivated by it's scenes,
Yet irritated by the unforeseen circumstances,
I've yet to grasp the concept,
Perhaps I was still inept,
But the taint and stupidity was unacceptable,
If only I was a little capable,
Then maybe it would work,
Instead of acting like a dork.

Morning

The sunshine wakes me up from my slumber,
Hopefully I'll be a little sober,
Mmm such joy,
Mmm I feel like I can fly,
As I thought I was about to be gone,
It sends the shiver to my funny-bone,
It's a new day,
There's lot of things to say,
But I hope you have the time,
And you stay the same,
It's a new beginning,
To start thinking,
To start moving,
And to start working.

Outside

I'm on the outside looking on the inside,
Hoping not to fade,
Wishing for tomorrow,
Feeling my heart beating slow,
Waiting for something,
Hoping for nothing,
The things you wanted to say,
Save it for another day,
I don't feel like hearing,
I don't feel like thinking,
Watching from the outside,
Seeing it being ripped apart from the inside..

Blood

The dashing colour of red,
The tainted yet beautiful,
The significance colour of the dead,
The art of a fool,
What's not to bleed,
Is a sign of being bored,
Of self-inflicting pain enthusiasm,
Towards what is called an asylum,
For the fainted heart and soul,
Towards being a pitiful ghoul.

Ramblings

It's time to get up your feet,
It's the moment where we should meet,
You hear a voice,
As you roll the dice,
The dice of fate,
As you're about to open the gate,
The possibilities which you can achieve seems infinite,
Without a doubt,
You can accomplish what you have thought.

Ramblings

The bed I sleep has become my coffin,
I was at the crossing eating my muffin,
Wondering how it even got there,
And wondering what they were,
I couldn't feel fear at that moment,
They were staring back at me at the bent,
Their eyes were drown with sorrow,
And I was feeling blue and mellow,
I waved at them,
There were no response from them,
Where am I?
I could not speak,
The air grows thinner every moment,
I'm trapped,
Let me out,
Maybe that's not what I thought.

Weirdness

I died in my dreams today,
That feeling was so gay,
It's like eating on hay,
Though eating hay would also be gay,
I've never felt like that before,
The heart feeling so sore,
Lazing around,
Hoping to be found,
Only to scream,
And stuck eating a piece of ham.

Morning Blues

You wake up in the morning,
Hoping you're still living,
But your heart wishes otherwise,
You begin to lose track of time,
Wondering whether to continue your sleep,
Or to start a new day without having to stop,
I'm not sure what the future holds for me,
I'm not certain whether you're right for me,
I do not recognize the man I see the mirror,
Or this person who I hear from far,
These voices are haunting in my sleep,
Though I feel I'm at the top,
I don't know where I am,
And that has cause me to hit rock-bottom,
I don't know what is this,
I just pray i know the right words.

Still Alive

This was a triumph.
I'm making a note here: HUGE SUCCESS.
It's hard to overstate my satisfaction.
Aperture Science
We do what we must
because we can.
For the good of all of us.
Except the ones who are dead.
But there's no sense crying over every mistake.
You just keep on trying till you run out of cake.
And the Science gets done.
And you make a neat gun.
For the people who are still alive.
I'm not even angry.
I'm being so sincere right now.
Even though you broke my heart.
And killed me.
And tore me to pieces.
And threw every piece into a fire.
As they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you!
Now these points of data make a beautiful line.
And we're out of beta.
We're releasing on time.
So I'm GLaD. I got burned.
Think of all the things we learned
for the people who are still alive.
Go ahead and leave me.
I think I prefer to stay inside.
Maybe you'll find someone else to help you.
Maybe Black Mesa
THAT WAS A JOKE.
HAHA. FAT CHANCE.
Anyway, this cake is great.
It's so delicious and moist.
Look at me still talking
when there's Science to do.
When I look out there, it makes me GLaD I'm not you.
I've experiments to run.
There is research to be done.
On the people who are still alive.
And believe me I am still alive.
I'm doing Science and I'm still alive.
I feel FANTASTIC and I'm still alive.
While you're dying I'll be still alive.
And when you're dead I will be still alive.
STILL ALIVE (x2)



Funky song from Portal... here's the link

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RthZgszykLs

Get the game if you have the money, it's worth it ..


The link for the song
http://files.filefront.com/portal+still+aliverar/;8768347;/fileinfo.html

Ramblings

Was looking for a reason,
Finding for a motivation,
Just a son,
Who became a man,
I don't know what's ahead of me,
But I'm sure I can't be the same,
I can't let it happen,
It's a reason,
Or is a liability,
Perhaps if I understand it fully,
But who am I to judge,
I'm not even a sage,
Why am I acting so old,
I'm feeling bald,
Then again I already am,
Who knows???

C'est La Vie (That is life)

I want to jump off a plane,
You can call me insane,
It's not like I cared anyway,
I know you should never let a chance fly by,
As time only move forward,
And me being weird,
Life just seems to be simple that way,
Whether it's just fishing at the bay,
Looking at people's reaction,
Whether it is giving affection,
Or receiving a kick on the groin,
Perhaps picking up a coin,
To have a fortune told,
Or turning things into gold,
It's all up to the individual,
You can take a dive like a seal,
To enjoy the calm of the ocean,
Or be an asshole just to be mean,
Like it or not,
It's what you got,

Past

I couldn't say sorry,
Don't worry,
It will all be okay,
As long as I remembered what to say,
Don't you cry,
It's just a small fry,
You'll find another one soon,
So just have some fun,
If you keep thinking about the past,
You'll end up being last,
Falling behind,
Losing your mind,
Wishing you could turn back time,
Wishing everything could be the same,
Losing your feelings,
Losing your senses,
Staring blankly,
Repeating the lullaby,
Thinking it over and over again,
And when you start to feel pain,
That is when you know you're alive,
And you know you have to move.

Out of My Mind

You keep me running,
Going and coming,
Everyday you change your mind,
Someone like you is hard to find,
You drive me crazy,
Making me so sleazy,
Life is a game,
And you're taking your time,
I love this feeling of being out of control,
Is like living without a goal,
Where there are no strings attached,
And your problems are detached.

Complicated Heart

It's hard to hold a conversation,
With all this distraction,
The feelings I have is tough,
I feel my words are not enough,
Why are you looking at me that way?
Do you have something say?
You're smiling again,
Am I being a pain?
Or do you just find my actions silly,
If only I could understand you fully,
Then I won't make wrong judgments,
And perhaps I could make some amendments,
Being in the elevator,
Seeing that you being a star,
Consuming the air I breath,
Like some sort of Dark Sith,
But I've seen you before,
I've never seen you tore,
Nor have I seen you fall,
You've always stood tall,
Speaking your mind and heart desire,
Hearing your voice only makes me want you more,
It was captivating,
It was exhilarating,
I don't understand myself anymore,
Why am I being such a sore.

Tired

I'm so tired,
I'm staring at my bed,
Gazing at the stars,
Flipping the pages,
Waiting for the time to pass by,
Enjoying my favorite lullaby,
Looking through cards and pictures,
Laughing at all those funny faces,
Being emotional over nothing,
Tried laughing,
Didn't work,
Hoping I'll get my mind back,
Taking my time,
Being my own pace,
Falling asleep,
Taking a nap.

Core Dump

I got a core dump,
I'm feeling so slump,
I got another 6 hours before my due date,
Perhaps I should accept my fate,
Been killing my brain cells,
I'm hearing the ringing of the bells,
It's about time,
But I'm feeling the same,
I don't want to quit,
But all I can do is sit,
Such a day,
Come what may,
If only i could simplify,
Then I could rectify,
Screw this,
What a fuss,
I'm off to bed,
Don't want to be sad.

Broken Thread

Missing the days,
Missing the nights,
Feeling sorry for what I've done,
Seeing that you're gone,
Maybe you were right,
Maybe I've should have fight,
But it was too late,
As I could see you walking towards the gate,
I wish I could say the words,
But my faint heart could not play the proper chords,
I'm regretting over the past,
Wish my heart could get over it fast,
You will always be there in my heart,
It's like a never-ending art,
The waves of my love,
Like the beautiful wings of the dove,
I could never forget your voice,
As it has always given me grace,
I do not seek forgiveness,
I only hope you found happiness.

Coding Jumping

I've seen this before,
There is it again through the core,
Why wouldn't you compile?
Why couldn't I handle this file?
Why am I doing this again?
Is there anything to gain?
I'm losing my mind,
It's not like it could find,
Was it the syntax,
Or did it went to the wrong fax,
Perhaps I'm doing it wrong,
Perhaps I'm hitting the gong,
Is not liked you care,
Is not liked I gave you a dare,
I wasn't pretending,
I was just coding,
Maybe a little compiling,
And a little dreaming,
It's another while statement,
Or is a switch management,
This if doesn't look right,
Oh it's such an awful sight.

Tralala (Random)

It's a day,
It's at a bay,
What's there to say,
Come what may,
I know not you,
You know not I,
I don't care,
But you gave a dare,
It's a bee,
For what's to see,
Jumping in glee,
There it is, let's flee!!!!


Song Recommendation:
Funky beat (From an ex-member of M2M)
Marit Larsen - Don't Save Me
Marit Larsen - Under The Surface (My Fav)
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Enjoy!

Tomfoolery

We all heard it before,
And we've always wanted more,
We wouldn't want nothing but to touch,
But doing so will be too much,
As it will be too late,
Till we make our first mistake,
I know what I did was wrong,
But you don't know what you got till it's gone,
When everyday seem so long,
All you wanted to do is to sit under the sun,
And have some fun.

Lost For Words

I was seeking for a direction,
It was a harmless intention,
But I was stuck at this location,
Looking a way out for this situation,
All I could do is to weep in desperation,
When all I wanted to do was to hold you in admiration,
Whether it's right or wrong it's just an intuition,
A possible infatuation,
Which I hope you could have a conversation,
To which is of an observation,
Perhaps to my examination,
Of what I thought was my emotion.

Solitario

Let the silence be your friend,
Let your mind take you away,
Let no one take away your freedom,
To want something,
To need something,
Being in imperfect place,
Where it's hard to see a friendly face,
Where asylum could only shape your soul,
Let the world keep spinning around,
Let nothing disturb you especially an angry hound,
Watch the world burn as it slowly destroy itself,
Clinging to hope,
Holding on to faith,
Knowing it's inevitable.

^_^

A little test for those who know me..LOL

Create your own Friend Test here

Infinite Loop

I got this song stuck to my head for days,
Just spreading the love.. :)

Fushigi Purupuru Pururin Rin!

Puru puru pururin pururin
Puru puru pururin purupururin
Puru puru pururin pururin

Onna no ko wa fushigi na koto ni
Keetai dake ja ikiteyukenai
Mune ippai no ai to yuuki ga taisetsu nano yo

Atashi pururin purupururin
Pururin purupururin
Rinrin purupurupururin pururu

Mashumaro mitai ni
Honwa ka de
Uruurushichau
Yume to kibou no yume to kibou no
Mahou shoujo
Sore ga atashi nano yo

Puru puru pururin pururin
Puru puru pururin purupururin
Puru puru pururin pururin

Onna no ko wa fushigi na koto ni
Meeru dake ja manzoku dekinai
Rusuroku ippai anata no koe de
Tokimeki ga hoshii no

Atashi pururin purupururin
Pururin purupururin
Rinrin purupurupururin pururu

Mahou no chikara wa
Hora soko ni
Ureshiku nacchau
Yume wa kibou ni kibou wa yume ni
Mahou shoujo
Honto ni anata kamo ne

Mashumaro mitai ni
Honwa ka de
Uruurushichau
Yume to kibou no yume to kibou no
Mahou shoujo
Sore ga atashi nana yo

Puru puru pururin pururin
Puru puru pururin purupururin
Puru puru pururin pururin

Puru puru pururin pururin
Puru puru pururin purupururin
Puru puru pururin pururin

Caged

Every night it seems like there's no tomorrow,
I'm caught in a dream and I can't get out,
I'm caught in a dream and endless dream,
Wherever you are, I hope you're happy now,
For whatever it is, I'm just another fallout,
For whoever it was, I just hope you can scream,
To say what you truly feel,
To be what you really want,
To stay with what you hoped,
And there you are,
No where to be found,
Here I am,
Dreaming over nothing again,
Stuck again,
Free in a certain sense,
Free in what is not and is,
Or to be caged in what is something called freedom.

Freedom

I was once trapped and stripped from my freedom,
Entangled by religion, faith and expectations,
I've never enjoyed such entanglement,
It's as if you're choking everytime you take a breath,
It's like a bird trapped in a cage,
Unable to sing songs of love and freedom,
Such imprisonment will not do any good to any living soul,
It takes away creativity and the will to live,
When you control a being and strip it of its willpower,
It'll be nothing but a meaningless thing,
No longer a being or a soul,
It's reduced to a thing,
As it only becomes a possesion of something or somewhat else,
The right to believe,
The right to speak your mind,
As by giving control to an individual,
They begin to feel power,
They begin to feel as if they are masters of their own destiny,
Fight for your freedom,
Being free is what defines a true being of life,
Don't live your life in imprisonment,
Be an eagle soaring high and mighty..

Before It's Too Late

Another day passes,
I watch as the countless minutes begin to runaway,
I try to chase them,
But it was pointless cause,
I tried to speak to you,
I couldn't say the words that were on my mind,
Instead I only mutter insignificant words,
Though it prolonged our meeting,
My heart was too feeble,
To say those few words,
It may seem like a lost cause,
But for someone such as myself,
To hear your wonderful lips speak,
To feel your heavenly eyes staring back at me,
To smell your sensational aroma,
That itself should suffice,
Should I or should I not?
The clock is ticking,
My time is running,
Is it really too late.

Gift of Faith

Drops of heaven kept pouring down,
It was cold and lonely night,
It felt as if it could never end,
I longed for this ever-lasting moment,
As you were there at that moment,
Even now I still feel you,
I felt your presence every second of the day,
Even now you're still sitting right next to my heart,
You're the angel of my night,
You're the wind that kept my sail going,
You were there even when you're away,
I'm thankful everyday,
Even if it was for a short heartbeat moment,
I was overjoyed by your presence,
As it was a gift that I could cherish,
Even at the end of time..