Ramblings

Was looking for a reason,
Finding for a motivation,
Just a son,
Who became a man,
I don't know what's ahead of me,
But I'm sure I can't be the same,
I can't let it happen,
It's a reason,
Or is a liability,
Perhaps if I understand it fully,
But who am I to judge,
I'm not even a sage,
Why am I acting so old,
I'm feeling bald,
Then again I already am,
Who knows???

C'est La Vie (That is life)

I want to jump off a plane,
You can call me insane,
It's not like I cared anyway,
I know you should never let a chance fly by,
As time only move forward,
And me being weird,
Life just seems to be simple that way,
Whether it's just fishing at the bay,
Looking at people's reaction,
Whether it is giving affection,
Or receiving a kick on the groin,
Perhaps picking up a coin,
To have a fortune told,
Or turning things into gold,
It's all up to the individual,
You can take a dive like a seal,
To enjoy the calm of the ocean,
Or be an asshole just to be mean,
Like it or not,
It's what you got,

Past

I couldn't say sorry,
Don't worry,
It will all be okay,
As long as I remembered what to say,
Don't you cry,
It's just a small fry,
You'll find another one soon,
So just have some fun,
If you keep thinking about the past,
You'll end up being last,
Falling behind,
Losing your mind,
Wishing you could turn back time,
Wishing everything could be the same,
Losing your feelings,
Losing your senses,
Staring blankly,
Repeating the lullaby,
Thinking it over and over again,
And when you start to feel pain,
That is when you know you're alive,
And you know you have to move.

Out of My Mind

You keep me running,
Going and coming,
Everyday you change your mind,
Someone like you is hard to find,
You drive me crazy,
Making me so sleazy,
Life is a game,
And you're taking your time,
I love this feeling of being out of control,
Is like living without a goal,
Where there are no strings attached,
And your problems are detached.

Complicated Heart

It's hard to hold a conversation,
With all this distraction,
The feelings I have is tough,
I feel my words are not enough,
Why are you looking at me that way?
Do you have something say?
You're smiling again,
Am I being a pain?
Or do you just find my actions silly,
If only I could understand you fully,
Then I won't make wrong judgments,
And perhaps I could make some amendments,
Being in the elevator,
Seeing that you being a star,
Consuming the air I breath,
Like some sort of Dark Sith,
But I've seen you before,
I've never seen you tore,
Nor have I seen you fall,
You've always stood tall,
Speaking your mind and heart desire,
Hearing your voice only makes me want you more,
It was captivating,
It was exhilarating,
I don't understand myself anymore,
Why am I being such a sore.

Tired

I'm so tired,
I'm staring at my bed,
Gazing at the stars,
Flipping the pages,
Waiting for the time to pass by,
Enjoying my favorite lullaby,
Looking through cards and pictures,
Laughing at all those funny faces,
Being emotional over nothing,
Tried laughing,
Didn't work,
Hoping I'll get my mind back,
Taking my time,
Being my own pace,
Falling asleep,
Taking a nap.

Core Dump

I got a core dump,
I'm feeling so slump,
I got another 6 hours before my due date,
Perhaps I should accept my fate,
Been killing my brain cells,
I'm hearing the ringing of the bells,
It's about time,
But I'm feeling the same,
I don't want to quit,
But all I can do is sit,
Such a day,
Come what may,
If only i could simplify,
Then I could rectify,
Screw this,
What a fuss,
I'm off to bed,
Don't want to be sad.

Broken Thread

Missing the days,
Missing the nights,
Feeling sorry for what I've done,
Seeing that you're gone,
Maybe you were right,
Maybe I've should have fight,
But it was too late,
As I could see you walking towards the gate,
I wish I could say the words,
But my faint heart could not play the proper chords,
I'm regretting over the past,
Wish my heart could get over it fast,
You will always be there in my heart,
It's like a never-ending art,
The waves of my love,
Like the beautiful wings of the dove,
I could never forget your voice,
As it has always given me grace,
I do not seek forgiveness,
I only hope you found happiness.

Coding Jumping

I've seen this before,
There is it again through the core,
Why wouldn't you compile?
Why couldn't I handle this file?
Why am I doing this again?
Is there anything to gain?
I'm losing my mind,
It's not like it could find,
Was it the syntax,
Or did it went to the wrong fax,
Perhaps I'm doing it wrong,
Perhaps I'm hitting the gong,
Is not liked you care,
Is not liked I gave you a dare,
I wasn't pretending,
I was just coding,
Maybe a little compiling,
And a little dreaming,
It's another while statement,
Or is a switch management,
This if doesn't look right,
Oh it's such an awful sight.